and I used to like mysteries. not anymore :p
sometimes i don’t understand me. i can be super stubborn one minute and weak the next. withholding it all one day and pouring it all out the next day. am i bipolar? don’t answer that :p
it’s been a strange few months more me. was feeling so unsure of myself. but i’m feeling like the end of the rollercoaster is quickly approaching. i’m finally not second-guessing my decision(s) which feels foreign but i welcome it. normally, it’s a battle in my head. i am glad that i’m the type of girl to never have anything left unsaid. it’s a gift and a curse really but that’s just how i’m wired i guess.
i’m rambling. so what. it’s my blog. you guys don’t read my personal posts no way lol. i say all this to say that I’M FEELING LIKE MY SWAG IS COMING BACK and i’m damn sure happy about that.
*and i am now retiring the word ‘swag’ from my vocabulary*
showing no mercy to this Belgian waffle, bacon, home fries, and OJ I just ordered from the 24hr diner around the way. They be mad stingy with the syrup though son :p
sometimes when my phone goes almost a full day without ringing, i check to see if my service was suspended. then i realize, no one’s thought about me enough to call or text. :(
6 months from today I’ll be celebrating a big birthday. No plans yet. But I’m sure it’ll be a big deal.
- eat well
- work harder
- smile at someone everyday. it helps.
- don’t take things too personally. even when it hurts your feelings.
- carry more cash on you. i was assed out the other day at the bar.
- get more rest.
- answer your phone for a change.
- don’t let anyone change who you are because of what they’ve done.
- tell your family and friends how you feel about them.
- listen to more music. music is the gift that keeps on giving.
it finally hit me that this should definitely be here last year on air. not for nothing, i love Oprah, but that 4 o’clock slot needs to be filled by someone else. she’ll still go down as THEE Queen of Daytime. Plus, she has a gang of bread (aka money for the slow pokes :)) and her new network, which i’d love to be apart of.
I really do wish that I were ambidextrous so that I can use my fork and mouse at the same time. Not easy blogging and eating simultaneously.
Amber: I think if Zombies really took over right now I’d have to kill myself so I wouldn’t have to deal with it.
(maybe because we’re still drunk but that was dumb funny to me and Shane)
how some people find joy in other people’s sadness and despair. I’m the opposite. I tend to internalize it especially for those I care about. I need to learn how to be there for friends and family without letting their problems become my own. I have enough shit on my plate as is.
Just a thought.
we just finished watching Scent of a Woman. now she’s going to bed and as usual, i’m the only one wide awake. guess what imma do until i get sleepy? yup, blog. i need a fucking life…
I see a lot of posts with ppl claiming to be nerds and dorks. Is this the new ‘cool’ or something? seems like an adjective fad that I want no part of.
It feels good to be guilt-free, knowing that your pain wasn’t caused by me. but hey, that’s life. We all fall down. We all get kicked, back-stabbed, and lied to. I’m no more immune to it than you.
What you want now may not be what you need later. Just may be a blessing in disguise, GOD’s favor.